I seriously don't know what I was thinking. Am i doing the right thing? URGH!!! Waking up today, something feels very missing. It's like a part of me is gone. Like a hand or something. For a start, No more "goodmorning" text. School's suppose to start late today. But I didn't know. So being a bimbo, i woke up early. Then i checked my phone, no messages. But then i forgot, why would he wanna text me??? I'm sucha stupid girl.. I'm feeling so sad and depressed right now. My heart is sunken to the lowest. I can barely breathe like normal and tears are like obscuring my sight when i try to catch my breath. Am I doing the right thing?
I'm still loving you, like i did yesterday.96Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,who holds your hand in front of his friends,who thinks you’ re just as pretty without makeup on.One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU…The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her…He is the one, what did i do?Labels: bitter sweet farewell, the cheerleader says bye.
You got me feeling upside down today
Life is just so hectic. I don't know if I should go back to school tomorrow. Cause of some house meeting. I think shervin said something along the lines of making a banner?? I don't know. Currently I'm feeling scared. questions like "what if? does he? am i?" are like running through my mind. Yay! we won the match! Please god let us win the next one. then we can move on to the next round. then I'll be super. happy.Yay!
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YEAH, you got that. i hate my mum. she gives me a terrible life. she thinks she gives me freedom. but her idea of freedom is utterly pathetic. PATHETIC!
I'm grounded. No phone, no comp. so, don't text me okay? If you need to reach me, you can get through my sister's phone. that is, if you have her number.
I'm currently sleeping over at my friend's place. GOOD! I don't have to see her face. and that is why I am on the computer. If not, don't expect me to be online anyway.
I love my friend's laptop. better than mine. way way better!
So, today i went to sentosa. I've got pictures, but no cable to upload it up. But anyway, school's gonna start. I'm going to school. stay back as long as I want! what she gonna do? HAA! She threatened to transfer me out or home school me. Come on! I can hardly keep up in school and she wanna home school me? Yay! I'm Miley Cyrus! I'm Home schooled. How cool is that? -.-" Seriously, whatever man. she can't keep controlling me. I'm growing older for god's sake. she can be strict to me now since she has the energy. wait till my younger sister grows and come to my age. she'll probably be to tired to control her. & yay! my younger sister will be a star on 16 and pregnant!
I'm done ranting. gonna use the comp while i still have the chance. So, TTFN! Remember, don't text me!
Labels: bitter sweet farewell, misery
I've been busy lately. Really2 Busy. I wouldn't be saying study, cause i hate studying. It's what i call, "eyes on the prize!" Being Busy, eyeing my prize and not making a fool of myself by making fun of every single imperfection i see; i did not have time to reply to a very sad story that was posted on ________ blog.
Let's start.
What happened to forever?
I should be asking you that. What happened to "i will be there for you when you need me the most"??? I asked you for 1 favour. You don't wna go? fine. tell me. after school when i'm looking for you frantically, you ignored me when i'm right infront of you. Please, i may not know you for eternity, but i've known you way long enough to know who you really are and when you're pulling off a show. If you can spot Amirul Asyraf's imperfection from miles away, why not ur bestf in front of you. who not only walked past, but amira also said "hi" to her when she walkd past.
Don't say you're sorry when your not. If Amira didn't tell you why i was so unhappy, i don't even think that this matter would even struck ur freakish socialite mind. Reality check; yes, you need it. Those friends whom you always try to break off and make sure whatever bastard-ish stuff would hit them right in the face one day, u are more than willing to give in to them than me. Remember when you always wna find someones fault and would need a back-up? I was always there to sacrifice what people would think of me and actually allow people to say negative stuff abt me just to be ur backrest. Funny isn't it how you would always be their no. 1 friend and I will still look like as if i was the one who initiated it.
You act like as if your so sorry, I don't think you are even close to sincere. When your with Your friend that you share the limelight with, you ignore me. and act like as ig i'm invisible. i wouldnt say human, cause if i was a human walking past, i'm sure u got something less than pathetic to say. when you're alone, "hi siti, you ok? you want some? are you sure?" Oh, cut off some slack man! You do anything to make you look good and make yourself go deeper into a friendship that who knows garuntee you the future. even if it means, humiliating your own bestf. Go ahead, talk abt me behind my back, Just so you know. I have never uttered a single word abt you. Nothing great to say about a girl who badly needs a mirror to allow her ugly attitute to surface from below. Maybe that will show you how disgusted people actually see the way you act.
P.S. Batam Poo ley gi sidai lah buat kerek badan ko-.-"
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So great to be back home! Although my ward was really beautiful. I had the whole ward to myself. There was a television and all that. It was nightmare there. They wanted to Op me. but I was scared. So they did an Ultrasound first. Every single thing they wanted to do to me, I would turn Hysterical. Screaming, shouting, crying. Pateints with those severe illness keep giving me the
"Wth bitch, I've been through worst. So shut up!" look.
It was scary lah. They had stitches everywhere.
Anyhooo! I met this cute nurse! Somehow, I felt stalked. He doesnt take care of me. But he keeps coming & peeping into my ward. Which is weird cause there is nobody else in the ward except for me. So funny sia he. HAHAHA!
Then, there was this one time. i was doing something retard. I didnt realize that he was peeping at me , again. then when i look around the room, I saw him at the door. He quickly run off like a cute little mice. HAHAH! He is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Cute lah!
I know lately my pictures are all so glamourous. hehe. But here are unglam pics of me, in the hospital. I couldnt sleep at night, so i took pictures.
Labels: bitter sweet farewell, misery, the cheerleader says bye.
My name is Siti :)
Camp was sooooooooo boring. i rather just sit at home and rot to death. haha! no laa. kay, actually i rather go school and stare at people which are cute-ilicious!
before i start, i wonder who is the person* that tag at my tagboard "yr lover:)"
chey, if ur hot, say your name human! HAHA!
eek! gatal eh? kay shut up!
okay, i got separated from my LOVERS! but i same group with Samuel. yay! not bad lah. i hugged him all the way during nightwalk. but he didnt mind :D DURH, EVERYBODY LOVES MY HUGGIE WUGGIE!
i hate the school. conferm they hate me, thats why they must make me soooooo freaking miserable.
anw, made friends with VANESSA! she is nice, & she is just like me ; nobody without friends.
so yeah.
during the ferry ride. i cried & cried. i got motion sickness. i felt like vomitting. oh how i wish i have a private jet?!
it rained the whole day, nothing to doo... && i surrendered my phone cause i am a good girl. innocent face* so couldnt call anybody that reminds me of home.
batam talked to me. tryna act nice konon!
no firned. like what she says "takde kawan"
the food was yucky, durh. batam food wat. closest to st john
btw, i love big ears! haha! gerek sey kacau amira. HAHA!
& i hate zaky. so zaky, read this.
&& I LOVE WULAN!
she really can talk like an angel n melt your heart i tell you.
make me feel like I'm super flawless. but i know i'm not!
&& happy birthday tuti! if i ever forget*
Labels: bitter sweet farewell, i kissed a girl, kissed a girl, last had fun, misery, the cheerleader says bye.
PFFT~
Minahs oh minahs.
need a definition? i will write in proper tenses and grammatically correct because, I ain't a minah, okay?
seriously , why must talk outside school? when like you have back-ups? so that when amira "rembats" you they can help? then like, you want to talk to amira, can't you call her yourself? must ask your friend to call her? okay, stop with the question mark*
then , you fought with amira but you had to pull people in. not just those siglap minahs, but me too. i did not fight with you right? you just had to go and tell Narash what i said? please eh, i know you will say " but you wrote it on your blog and people can see and tell him what" but hey, if i wanted the whole world to know, i would'nt have private my blog right?
i was so pissed at you. not just that, disgusted!
&& you went all " i have never felt this hurt in my life before"
You know what? In life, there is always a first time, so suck it up. Life is not a breeze, it's never easy. so, don't come up with that kinda shit that "never before in my life" kinda thing.
please eh, I am not trying to take sides blindly, but i have thought wisely.
&& initially, i did not want to come up with all this sides bullshit. but you jus had to prove me wrong. Seriously , you know how much amira likes him. but yet you don't seem to give a damn. Life's a bitch to you? more like you had a choice on how you wanted life to be towards you. not like as if you were forced into a stupid bitchy life kan?
Labels: bitter sweet farewell, misery, the cheerleader says bye.
Lately, have been hanging out with the boys under my block. I'm starting to be like one of the boys manxzxz!& did i tell you i play soccer like an all-star? I do, Yknow?anw, people.here's a big shocker!i keep finding myself staring at zakkey!like major supercalifrajelisticaspialidociously eeeeeew!i hate him to the max sia~ he keep calling me perangai biatch. you should hear him say it. with the slang. nk step sia that normal technical. hah~ jahat eh siti?&& today i saw him. YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPS!the most unexpected was, he texted me right after. i was smiling all the way sia.. hah~Love me , hate me,
say watchu want about meme missing me long hair
Labels: bitter sweet farewell, i kissed a girl, kissed a girl, last had fun, the cheerleader says bye.
Overall, I am a lazy bimbo. anw, i went through maneesha's phone album. and it had loadsa photo of me in my long hair. omgomg! i miss them truckloads! i even came across one photo and went "siala, who's this slutty looking bitch sia?!" maneesha gave me the pathetic look -.- "you larh" haha, omg, i was once a gorgeous slut. HAHAHA! anyway, i'm like alredi serik of blogging bout batam. but since you hacked my blog. aku masih tak serik2 lagik. however you spell serik. HAH~ bimbo much -.-"
heres the story-
oh wow, hack my account. so she and her apek to be husband- firdaus. i tell you, that batam come to singapore; thinking she can live a casual life. but no, she can't escape from it. she comes to singapore, our sunny island and meet firdaus. an apek. & there ya go! she is gon be a karang guni wife. cant get away, can you? hah~ tell me when i can stop laughing bout u kay? so yeah, one day, GENO, walk. walk and walk and walk. okay stop-.-" why? cos batam n firdaus , eh no, pembetulan - karang guni larh! so yeah, they confronted geno. ask why siti private her blog and write bout me n firdaus. we not happy, 569 or rather what me n my girls call; mini mart boys, wana sound her. chey wah! batam blowjob ekh? best? manis takk konek dorang? wah, conferm drg suke ekh? mesti larh, gigi kau senget per, cam aper eh? tikus? tkpelah, asl kan mini mart boys bahagia.. so yeah. wah, cam geno nk dengar kate krg. so geno- walkwalkwalk and stop. tell me! n the G-MATS! so i changed my password. and that batam, scared perh? i call syafiqah sound her, hilang. mcm tau ekh batam? kau pakai ape? black magic? oh.. uh-uh. originate from batam wat. then we tell ppl, confront geno AGAIN! ask how ppl know. ey apek n wife taik eh kepala kau? huh? gi tandas tk pakai alas kepala? sampai setan berakkan? gi madrasah boleh tk? ape? taklay? ohh... yeah. tk cukup duit. tk pe lah. cari sponsor eh sayang? dah cukup lah! berbuih mulot aku -.-"
anw, today i keep making fun of ana. haha! dont know why! lol! but okay larh! at least she never violent sia hit me back. she didnt even hit me back. waaah, ana baik eh? lol! yalah baik!
Labels: bitter sweet farewell, i kissed a girl, kissed a girl, last had fun, misery, the cheerleader says bye.
YOU GOT ME HITTING ON YOU,
WHEN YOU COULD BE HITTING ON me
Labels: bitter sweet farewell, i kissed a girl, misery, the cheerleader says bye.
Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me
Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget
We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all
And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
I won't forget us
But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us
Don't forget, Demi levato
Labels: bitter sweet farewell, misery
Hey-ho~Have u ever met a batam? seriously, they r such bitches! go around stealing money, nabeyh! I know i've got no evidence uh, bt u even dare to steal ur parents money , so wat's more ur own friends! Loner kepe girl kat skola? ooo, batam tkde kawan? sedih nyer....! bey hang out ngan upper sec? pi la sundal, i dun giv a fuck ar eh.. bey nk quit cheerleading? asl? no friends n I'm like the captain n u feel left out? go larh, quit!~ just dont forget to pay for ur uniform eyh, nothing in singapore is free eh batam! then simpan duit lima puluh kat coli. asl? takot?~ tau pun sundal! then lying about ur life."I own a BMW, bt then my dad go switch wit my grandpa wit a toyota old-fashion" woah! cn u come up with something less cliche batam? then hang out wit laki upper sec terpekik pekau, orang sume complain sia~ oh people! wat to do? Cnt stand a batam when u see one rite? then told sab that ur dad is a step-dad. bapak sendiri pun nk malu? some kind of kid ekh... anak batam per, jadi pelacuh tk malu, bapak sendiri baru malu.. andand batam, u've got badbad english. ur suck a poser! ikut2 angel sumer.. go around saying" u know i go countdown then i see matrep dance like this" hey freakshow, i heard that frm angel. using all her "cool" stories as urs? ur pathetic la eh... trendy wanker. stop posing around something ur nt la. please eh, at the end of the day, its ur dignity.
btw, ur such a menyebok la eh. everybody pissed off with u larh. n FYI, the reasong y everybody is ur friend, is cos maneesha n me r ur friends. so, they hav to be friends wit you. now we r nt ur friends, everybody is glad to nt be ur friend! whenevr u come, i swear that people r trying so hard to get rid of u! moral of the story is, dun be a bitch! so when u get into stupid fights, people will HOPEFULLY side u. which, i dun tink so. i tink they would willingly side their own homeground ppl. that is SINGAPOREANS!
haha, tk caye? "and fyi, since the day she lepak with you and maneesha kan. she like wanna act some pathetic bimbo.. but now without you guys. shes like pathetic? in class she slept.then bangon, mcm snoob. lol." quoted from ur own "acting friends"
To show u some dignity, i wont post ur full body pictures eh flat boobs.
but wtv uh, when u see a batam , u can tell. by the slutty sniggers, n way too loud laughs n guys touching her here n there. n she is just lovin' it!slutty kn? kau suke?
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Why does it have to hurt so much? I really really miss you. this december holidays was so fun, and it made me remeber you soooo much. because i remember vividly when u made my march holidays a blast. those were the most sweetest memories. but yet, it came along with lots of bitterness. i didnt know you were gona be a vixen in me. bt then i realised, although i thought that we were made for each other, bt people around us proved us wrong. i sholda let you go long ago when i knew it was all going into the wrong directions, but i was crazy in love that made me come back for more. YOU were the only guy in my life that i have cried for. i never thought that i could be so vulnerable. Once in a while, the memories of you flashback, but i try to let go of you. not knowing that it hurts me even more. now , i learnt that i'll just let time heal everything. that way, i shal not have to bare the sourness.
Happy Birthday & I'm cursing your name
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